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The space between Self-Esteem and Self Compassion
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Translator: Rui Jiang Reviewer: Queenie Lee
00:14
I guess you could say that I am a self-compassion evangelist.
00:18
I love spreading the good word about self-compassion.
00:23
I've devoted the last ten years of my research career
00:27
to studying the mental health benefits of self-compassion,
00:30
and more recently I've been working on developing interventions to help people
00:34
learn to be more compassionate to themselves in their lives.
00:38
And the reason I'm so passionate about self-compassion
00:43
is because I have really seen its power in my own life.
00:47
I first learned about self-compassion in 1997,
00:51
when I was finishing up my PhD at UC Berkeley.
00:55
I was going through a really hard time.
00:57
I had just gotten out of a very messy divorce
01:01
with feeling of a lot of shame and self-judgment.
01:04
I was feeling a lot of stress.
01:06
Would I finish my PhD?
01:08
And if I did, would I get a job?
01:11
So, I thought it would be a good time to learn how to practice meditation.
01:15
So I signed up with a local Buddhist meditation group.
01:19
And the very first evening, the very first course,
01:22
the woman leading the group talked about the importance of compassion,
01:26
not only for others, but also for ourselves,
01:29
the importance of including ourselves in the circle of compassion,
01:33
of treating ourselves with the same kindness, care, and concern
01:37
that we treat a good friend.
01:39
And it was like a light bulb went off over my head at that moment.
01:42
I realized - well, first I thought, what?
01:45
You're allowed to be nice yourself, and this is being encouraged?
01:49
But I realized,
01:50
it was exactly what I needed in that difficult moment in my life.
01:54
So really, from that day forward,
01:56
I can say I intentionally tried to be more compassionate to myself,
02:00
and it made a huge difference almost immediately.
02:04
And then, luckily, I did get a job; I did two years of postdoctoral study
02:08
with one of the country's leading self-esteem researchers.
02:12
And while working with her, I started to realize that self-compassion
02:16
offered a lot of benefits that self-esteem didn't.
02:21
Let me start by defining what I mean by self-esteem.
02:24
Self-esteem is a global evaluation of self-worth, a judgment:
02:30
"Am I a good person, or I'm a bad person?"
02:35
And for many years, psychologists really saw self-esteem
02:38
as the ultimate marker of psychological health,
02:41
and there's a reason for that.
02:42
There's lots of research that shows if you have low self-esteem,
02:45
if you hate yourself, you're going to be depressed,
02:48
you're going to be anxious,
02:50
you're going to have all sorts of psychological problems;
02:53
if it gets really bad, you might even consider suicide.
02:57
However, high self-esteem also can be problematic.
03:01
The problem is not if you have it;
03:04
it's how you get it.
03:08
In American culture,
03:10
(Laughter)
03:12
to have high self-esteem,
03:14
we have to feel special and above-average.
03:18
Okay.
03:19
If I told anyone of you, your work performance,
03:21
"Oh, it's average," or "you are an average mother,"
03:23
or if you told me afterward that this talk was average,
03:26
I'd be crashed, right?
03:28
It's not okay to be average.
03:29
It's considered an insult to be average.
03:33
So what's the problem with that?
03:34
If all of us have to be above average at the same time, right?
03:40
Are the words "logical impossibility" springing to mind here, right?
03:45
So what happens if we all have to feel above-average?
03:48
As we started playing these little games,
03:50
we start suddenly finding ways to puff ourselves up and put others down
03:54
so we can feel better about ourselves in comparison.
03:57
And some people actually take this to an extreme.
04:00
You may or may not know,
04:01
but there is an epidemic of narcissism in this culture.
04:05
We've been tracking the narcissism levels of college undergraduates
04:08
for the past 25 years,
04:10
and they are at the highest levels ever recorded,
04:13
and actually a lot of psychologists
04:14
believe this is because of the self-esteem movement in the schools.
04:21
And there are a lot of nasty social dynamics
04:24
that can stem from needing to feel better than others
04:28
to feel good about ourselves.
04:30
We also have an epidemic of bullying in our culture in our schools.
04:34
Why do kids bully?
04:36
Why do kids who are forming their sense of self
04:39
feel they've got to bully others?
04:41
It's partly to build their own sense of self-esteem,
04:44
to feel that they are stronger, more powerful
04:46
than these other kids that they're picking on.
04:49
Or why are people prejudiced?
04:51
Why do we feel that our religious group, or ethnic group, or political party
04:55
is better than the other group?
04:57
Partly, in order to enhance our own self-esteem.
05:02
Another problem with self-esteem is that it's contingent on success.
05:08
We only feel good about ourselves when we succeed in those domains of life
05:13
that are important to us.
05:15
But what happens when we fail?
05:16
What happens when we don't meet our ideal standards?
05:19
We feel lousy,
05:20
we feel terrible about ourselves.
05:22
And for women this is especially hard
05:25
because what do you think research shows, around the world,
05:29
the number-one domain in which women invest their self-esteem?
05:35
(Laughter)
05:36
Right?
05:38
Our perception of how attractive we are.
05:40
And the standards for women are so high.
05:42
How can we feel above average in looks? We're looking at all these supermodels.
05:46
Even the supermodels feel insecure compared to other supermodels, right?
05:50
It's very interesting if you look at this developmentally.
05:53
Around third grade, boys and girls both think they're pretty attractive,
05:58
and they have fairly high levels of self-esteem.
06:00
Then for boys, about the end of sixth grade:
06:03
yeah, looking pretty good, feeling pretty good.
06:06
End of high school: looking good, feeling good about myself.
06:10
But for girls, after third grade ...
06:13
their perception of how attractive they are,
06:15
and therefore their self-esteem, starts to take a nosedive.
06:21
It starts very young.
06:23
So how do we get off this treadmill,
06:25
this constant need to feel better than others
06:27
so that we can feel good about ourselves?
06:30
That's where self-compassion comes in.
06:33
Self-compassion is not a way of judging ourselves positively,
06:38
self-compassion is a way of relating to ourselves kindly,
06:42
embracing ourselves as we are: flaws and all.
06:49
I actually define self-compassion in my research
06:51
as having three core components.
06:56
The first, you might say, is the most obvious,
06:58
and that is treating ourselves with kindness versus harsh self-judgment.
07:03
Treating ourselves like we treat a good friend,
07:06
with encouragement, understanding, empathy, patience, gentleness.
07:11
But if you stop to check in with how we treat ourselves,
07:14
especially on a bad day when things aren't going so well,
07:18
we're often harsher and more cruel to ourselves in the language we use.
07:24
We say things to ourselves
07:25
we would never say to someone we cared about.
07:28
We say things to ourselves
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we probably even wouldn’t say to someone we didn't like very much.
07:33
We are often our own worst enemy.
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With self-compassion, we reverse that pattern
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and start treating ourselves like we treat our good friends.
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The second component of self-compassion
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is common humanity.
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Where self-esteem asks, "How am I different than others?"
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Self-compassion says, "Well, how am I same as others?"
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And one of the ways we are the same as others -
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What does it mean to be human?
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To be human means to be imperfect.
08:05
All of us, everyone on the entire globe,
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we are imperfect as people, and our lives are imperfect.
08:11
That is the shared human experience.
08:15
Often what happens, though, irrationally,
08:17
when we notice something about ourselves -
08:19
we haven't reached our goal, or we're struggling in life -
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we feel as if, "Something has gone wrong here."
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"This is abnormal." "This shouldn't be this way."
08:28
"I shouldn't be failing to reach my goals."
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And it's that feeling of abnormality, of separation from others,
08:37
that is so psychologically damaging.
08:40
We make it so much worse
08:41
by feeling we're isolated in our suffering and our imperfection,
08:45
when in fact, that's precisely what connects us to other people.
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The third component of self-compassion is mindfulness.
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Mindfulness means being with what is in the present moment.
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And we need to be able to turn toward, acknowledge, validate,
09:04
and accept the fact that we are suffering
09:07
in order to give ourselves compassion.
09:10
Actually, oftentimes we aren't aware of our own suffering,
09:15
especially when that suffering comes from our own harsh self-criticism.
09:20
We get so lost in the role of self-critic,
09:22
so identified with the part of ourselves that puts the back up straight, saying,
09:26
"You are wrong, you should have done better."
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But we don't even notice
09:30
the incredible pain we're causing ourselves.
09:33
And if we don't notice
09:34
what we're doing to ourselves with our harsh self-criticism,
09:37
we can't give yourselves the compassion we need.
09:41
You might be asking, "Why do we do it?"
09:43
Self-criticism, we know it's painful. Why do we do it?
09:46
We've actually found in research -
09:48
there are lots of reasons we're self-critical -
09:50
but the number one reason ...
09:52
is that we believe we need our self-criticism to motivate ourselves;
09:57
that if we are too kind to ourselves,
10:00
we'll be self-indulgent and lazy.
10:04
So the question is: Is it true?
10:09
Actually, the research shows just the opposite:
10:12
Self-criticism undermines our motivation,
10:15
and here's why.
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When we criticize ourselves,
10:20
we are tapping into our bodies' threat-defense system:
10:24
the reptilian brain.
10:26
This system evolved
10:28
so that if there was a threat to our physical person,
10:30
we would release adrenaline and cortisol,
10:33
and prepare for the fight-or-flight response.
10:35
The system evolved for threats to our actual bodily self,
10:40
but in modern times, typically, the threat is not to our actual selves
10:43
but to our self-concept.
10:46
When we think a thought about ourselves
10:48
that we don't like, that's some imperfection,
10:50
we feel threatened,
10:52
and so we attack the problem, meaning we attack ourselves.
10:56
And with self-criticism, it's a double whammy
10:59
because we are both the attacker and the attacked.
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So self-criticism releases a lot of cortisol.
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If you are constant self-critic, you have constantly high levels of stress,
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and eventually the body, to protect itself, will shut itself down
11:14
and become "I'm depressed" in order to deal with all the stress.
11:18
And as we know, depression is not exactly the best motivational mindstate.
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Alright?
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Luckily, we aren't just reptiles,
11:28
we're also mammals.
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There's another way we can feel safe,
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and that is by tapping into the mammalian caregiving system.
11:40
What's unique about mammals is they are born very immature,
11:43
which means a system had to be evolved
11:46
in which the infant would want to stay close next to the mother
11:50
and stay safe,
11:51
which means our bodies are programmed to respond to warmth,
11:56
gentle touch, and soft vocalizations.
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So when we give ourselves compassion,
12:02
the research shows we actually reduce our cortisol levels,
12:06
and release oxytocin and opiates,
12:09
which are the feel-good hormones.
12:11
And when we feel safe and comforted,
12:14
we are in the optimal mindstate to do our best.
12:18
And it's actually very easy to see
12:20
when we think about how to best motivate our children.
12:25
Let's say there is a father
12:27
whose son comes home from high school with a failing math grade.
12:32
The father has two different ways to try to motivate his child.
12:35
The first is with harsh criticism.
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The son comes in, shows to father the math grade,
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and the father says,
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"I'm ashamed of you. What a loser. You'll never amount to anything."
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Does that make you cringe?
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Isn't that often precisely the type of language we use with ourselves?
12:56
What's going to happen to that son?
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Will he try harder? Yes, he will for the short term.
13:02
But eventually, he's going to lose faith in himself.
13:05
He's going to become depressed, and he will become afraid of failure
13:10
and probably give up math
13:11
because the consequences of failing again are just too dire.
13:16
But what if the father takes a compassionate approach?
13:20
The son shows him the failing math grade, and the father says,
13:23
"Uhh, ouch, wow. You must be hurting. I'm sorry.
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Hey, give me a hug. I still love you. It happens to everyone.
13:31
But I know you want to get your math grades up
13:34
because you want to go to college."
13:35
Here's what compassion says: "What can I do to help?"
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"How can I support you?"
13:41
And the more encouraging, loving, compassionate the father is,
13:44
the better place, emotionally, the son will be in to do his best.
13:50
And luckily, research strongly supports everything I've been saying.
13:57
The last few years, especially, have seen a sharp uptick
14:01
in the number of research studies conducted on self-compassion.
14:04
And the bottom line is unequivocally:
14:07
Self-compassion is very strongly related to mental well-being.
14:12
It's strongly related to less depression,
14:14
less anxiety, less stress, less perfectionism.
14:18
It's equally strongly related to positive states, like happiness,
14:22
like life satisfaction.
14:24
It's linked to greater motivation, taking greater self-responsibility,
14:29
making healthier lifestyle choices.
14:31
It's also linked to having more sense of connectedness with others,
14:35
better interpersonal relationships.
14:39
We've also done some research
14:41
comparing directly self-esteem and self-compassion.
14:44
And what we find, what you can say
14:45
is that self-compassion offers the benefits of self-esteem
14:49
without the pitfalls.
14:50
So it's associated with strong mental health,
14:53
but it's not associated with narcissism, or constant social comparison,
14:58
or ego-defensive aggression.
15:00
It also provides a much more stable sense of self-worth than self-esteem does
15:06
because it's there for you precisely when you fail.
15:09
Just when self-esteem deserts you,
15:12
self-compassion steps in and gives you a sense of being valuable,
15:16
not because you've reached some standard, or you've judged yourself positively,
15:20
but because you are a human being, worthy of love in that moment.
15:24
And again this is something I really know from my personal life.
15:30
The greatest challenge I have faced in my life, so far,
15:32
was when my son Rowan was diagnosed with autism.
15:36
And luckily when he was diagnosed,
15:38
I had a long practice of self-compassion under my belt.
15:43
So when I first got the diagnosis,
15:45
I felt incredible grief;
15:47
I even felt some shame.
15:50
And it was very hard to feel that, to admit that to myself.
15:54
Because how can I feel grief
15:55
about this child who I love more than anyone else in the world?
15:59
The thing is I was feeling that, and I knew
16:02
that what I needed at that moment was to embrace how difficult it was.
16:09
And the more I could embrace my own grief, the more quickly I moved through it,
16:13
and then the more able I was to turn toward him
16:16
and accept and love him for who he was.
16:19
It also helped me over and over again in the heat of the moment.
16:25
As you may know, one issue with autistic children,
16:28
especially when they're young, is they can throw very terrible tantrums.
16:33
So, imagine being on a plane to England -
16:36
this is a true story, Rowan was four years old -
16:39
I don't know what set him off,
16:41
but he throws a doozy of tantrum.
16:45
Flailing and screaming.
16:48
Everyone on that plane looking at us like they wish we were dead.
16:53
He's four years old; he looks normal.
16:55
People are thinking,
16:56
"What's wrong with this kid? Why is he acting this way?
16:58
What's wrong with this mother, why can't she control her child?"
17:01
Okay, lots of fear. What do I do, what do I do?
17:05
Jumping out the window sadly wasn't an option, so ...
17:09
I know, I'll take him to the bathroom. Try to comfort him there.
17:12
Maybe it'll muffle his screams.
17:14
So I'm kind of taking this four-year-old, flailing child to the bathroom,
17:18
which was, of course ...
17:20
occupied.
17:21
(Laughter)
17:23
Imagine being in that little space outside the bathroom door
17:27
with this tantruming child,
17:29
and I knew, in that moment, the only refuge I had was self-compassion.
17:34
So I put my hands over my heart, and I tried to comfort him,
17:38
but I was mainly focusing on myself.
17:40
"This is so hard right now, darling. I'm so sorry you're going through this.
17:44
But I'm here for you."
17:46
And you know what? It got me through.
17:49
And by allowing myself to be open-hearted toward myself,
17:55
I could remain open-hearted to Rowan.
17:58
People sometimes think self-compassion is self-indulgent or selfish.
18:03
It's not.
18:04
Because the more we were able to keep our hearts open to ourselves,
18:07
the more we have available to give to others.
18:11
So I would like to invite you to try to be more compassionate to yourself.
18:17
Especially as women, you know how to do it.
18:19
You know how to be a good friend.
18:21
You know what to say to comfort someone when they're in need.
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You just have to remember to be a good friend to yourself.
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It's easier than you think, and it really could change your life.
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And that's why I think self-compassion is an idea worth spreading.
18:38
Thank you.
18:39
(Applause)
Translator: Rui Jiang Reviewer: Queenie Lee
00:14
I guess you could say that I am a self-compassion evangelist.
00:18
I love spreading the good word about self-compassion.
00:23
I've devoted the last ten years of my research career
00:27
to studying the mental health benefits of self-compassion,
00:30
and more recently I've been working on developing interventions to help people
00:34
learn to be more compassionate to themselves in their lives.
00:38
And the reason I'm so passionate about self-compassion
00:43
is because I have really seen its power in my own life.
00:47
I first learned about self-compassion in 1997,
00:51
when I was finishing up my PhD at UC Berkeley.
00:55
I was going through a really hard time.
00:57
I had just gotten out of a very messy divorce
01:01
with feeling of a lot of shame and self-judgment.
01:04
I was feeling a lot of stress.
01:06
Would I finish my PhD?
01:08
And if I did, would I get a job?
01:11
So, I thought it would be a good time to learn how to practice meditation.
01:15
So I signed up with a local Buddhist meditation group.
01:19
And the very first evening, the very first course,
01:22
the woman leading the group talked about the importance of compassion,
01:26
not only for others, but also for ourselves,
01:29
the importance of including ourselves in the circle of compassion,
01:33
of treating ourselves with the same kindness, care, and concern
01:37
that we treat a good friend.
01:39
And it was like a light bulb went off over my head at that moment.
01:42
I realized - well, first I thought, what?
01:45
You're allowed to be nice yourself, and this is being encouraged?
01:49
But I realized,
01:50
it was exactly what I needed in that difficult moment in my life.
01:54
So really, from that day forward,
01:56
I can say I intentionally tried to be more compassionate to myself,
02:00
and it made a huge difference almost immediately.
02:04
And then, luckily, I did get a job; I did two years of postdoctoral study
02:08
with one of the country's leading self-esteem researchers.
02:12
And while working with her, I started to realize that self-compassion
02:16
offered a lot of benefits that self-esteem didn't.
02:21
Let me start by defining what I mean by self-esteem.
02:24
Self-esteem is a global evaluation of self-worth, a judgment:
02:30
"Am I a good person, or I'm a bad person?"
02:35
And for many years, psychologists really saw self-esteem
02:38
as the ultimate marker of psychological health,
02:41
and there's a reason for that.
02:42
There's lots of research that shows if you have low self-esteem,
02:45
if you hate yourself, you're going to be depressed,
02:48
you're going to be anxious,
02:50
you're going to have all sorts of psychological problems;
02:53
if it gets really bad, you might even consider suicide.
02:57
However, high self-esteem also can be problematic.
03:01
The problem is not if you have it;
03:04
it's how you get it.
03:08
In American culture,
03:10
(Laughter)
03:12
to have high self-esteem,
03:14
we have to feel special and above-average.
03:18
Okay.
03:19
If I told anyone of you, your work performance,
03:21
"Oh, it's average," or "you are an average mother,"
03:23
or if you told me afterward that this talk was average,
03:26
I'd be crashed, right?
03:28
It's not okay to be average.
03:29
It's considered an insult to be average.
03:33
So what's the problem with that?
03:34
If all of us have to be above average at the same time, right?
03:40
Are the words "logical impossibility" springing to mind here, right?
03:45
So what happens if we all have to feel above-average?
03:48
As we started playing these little games,
03:50
we start suddenly finding ways to puff ourselves up and put others down
03:54
so we can feel better about ourselves in comparison.
03:57
And some people actually take this to an extreme.
04:00
You may or may not know,
04:01
but there is an epidemic of narcissism in this culture.
04:05
We've been tracking the narcissism levels of college undergraduates
04:08
for the past 25 years,
04:10
and they are at the highest levels ever recorded,
04:13
and actually a lot of psychologists
04:14
believe this is because of the self-esteem movement in the schools.
04:21
And there are a lot of nasty social dynamics
04:24
that can stem from needing to feel better than others
04:28
to feel good about ourselves.
04:30
We also have an epidemic of bullying in our culture in our schools.
04:34
Why do kids bully?
04:36
Why do kids who are forming their sense of self
04:39
feel they've got to bully others?
04:41
It's partly to build their own sense of self-esteem,
04:44
to feel that they are stronger, more powerful
04:46
than these other kids that they're picking on.
04:49
Or why are people prejudiced?
04:51
Why do we feel that our religious group, or ethnic group, or political party
04:55
is better than the other group?
04:57
Partly, in order to enhance our own self-esteem.
05:02
Another problem with self-esteem is that it's contingent on success.
05:08
We only feel good about ourselves when we succeed in those domains of life
05:13
that are important to us.
05:15
But what happens when we fail?
05:16
What happens when we don't meet our ideal standards?
05:19
We feel lousy,
05:20
we feel terrible about ourselves.
05:22
And for women this is especially hard
05:25
because what do you think research shows, around the world,
05:29
the number-one domain in which women invest their self-esteem?
05:35
(Laughter)
05:36
Right?
05:38
Our perception of how attractive we are.
05:40
And the standards for women are so high.
05:42
How can we feel above average in looks? We're looking at all these supermodels.
05:46
Even the supermodels feel insecure compared to other supermodels, right?
05:50
It's very interesting if you look at this developmentally.
05:53
Around third grade, boys and girls both think they're pretty attractive,
05:58
and they have fairly high levels of self-esteem.
06:00
Then for boys, about the end of sixth grade:
06:03
yeah, looking pretty good, feeling pretty good.
06:06
End of high school: looking good, feeling good about myself.
06:10
But for girls, after third grade ...
06:13
their perception of how attractive they are,
06:15
and therefore their self-esteem, starts to take a nosedive.
06:21
It starts very young.
06:23
So how do we get off this treadmill,
06:25
this constant need to feel better than others
06:27
so that we can feel good about ourselves?
06:30
That's where self-compassion comes in.
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Self-compassion is not a way of judging ourselves positively,
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self-compassion is a way of relating to ourselves kindly,
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embracing ourselves as we are: flaws and all.
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I actually define self-compassion in my research
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as having three core components.
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The first, you might say, is the most obvious,
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and that is treating ourselves with kindness versus harsh self-judgment.
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Treating ourselves like we treat a good friend,
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with encouragement, understanding, empathy, patience, gentleness.
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But if you stop to check in with how we treat ourselves,
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especially on a bad day when things aren't going so well,
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we're often harsher and more cruel to ourselves in the language we use.
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We say things to ourselves
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we would never say to someone we cared about.
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We say things to ourselves
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we probably even wouldn’t say to someone we didn't like very much.
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We are often our own worst enemy.
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With self-compassion, we reverse that pattern
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and start treating ourselves like we treat our good friends.
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The second component of self-compassion
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is common humanity.
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Where self-esteem asks, "How am I different than others?"
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Self-compassion says, "Well, how am I same as others?"
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And one of the ways we are the same as others -
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What does it mean to be human?
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To be human means to be imperfect.
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All of us, everyone on the entire globe,
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we are imperfect as people, and our lives are imperfect.
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That is the shared human experience.
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Often what happens, though, irrationally,
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when we notice something about ourselves -
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we haven't reached our goal, or we're struggling in life -
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we feel as if, "Something has gone wrong here."
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"This is abnormal." "This shouldn't be this way."
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"I shouldn't be failing to reach my goals."
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And it's that feeling of abnormality, of separation from others,
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that is so psychologically damaging.
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We make it so much worse
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by feeling we're isolated in our suffering and our imperfection,
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when in fact, that's precisely what connects us to other people.
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The third component of self-compassion is mindfulness.
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Mindfulness means being with what is in the present moment.
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And we need to be able to turn toward, acknowledge, validate,
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and accept the fact that we are suffering
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in order to give ourselves compassion.
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Actually, oftentimes we aren't aware of our own suffering,
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especially when that suffering comes from our own harsh self-criticism.
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We get so lost in the role of self-critic,
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so identified with the part of ourselves that puts the back up straight, saying,
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"You are wrong, you should have done better."
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But we don't even notice
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the incredible pain we're causing ourselves.
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And if we don't notice
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what we're doing to ourselves with our harsh self-criticism,
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we can't give yourselves the compassion we need.
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You might be asking, "Why do we do it?"
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Self-criticism, we know it's painful. Why do we do it?
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We've actually found in research -
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there are lots of reasons we're self-critical -
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but the number one reason ...
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is that we believe we need our self-criticism to motivate ourselves;
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that if we are too kind to ourselves,
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we'll be self-indulgent and lazy.
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So the question is: Is it true?
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Actually, the research shows just the opposite:
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Self-criticism undermines our motivation,
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and here's why.
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When we criticize ourselves,
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we are tapping into our bodies' threat-defense system:
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the reptilian brain.
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This system evolved
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so that if there was a threat to our physical person,
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we would release adrenaline and cortisol,
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and prepare for the fight-or-flight response.
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The system evolved for threats to our actual bodily self,
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but in modern times, typically, the threat is not to our actual selves
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but to our self-concept.
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When we think a thought about ourselves
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that we don't like, that's some imperfection,
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we feel threatened,
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and so we attack the problem, meaning we attack ourselves.
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And with self-criticism, it's a double whammy
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because we are both the attacker and the attacked.
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So self-criticism releases a lot of cortisol.
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If you are constant self-critic, you have constantly high levels of stress,
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and eventually the body, to protect itself, will shut itself down
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and become "I'm depressed" in order to deal with all the stress.
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And as we know, depression is not exactly the best motivational mindstate.
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Alright?
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Luckily, we aren't just reptiles,
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we're also mammals.
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There's another way we can feel safe,
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and that is by tapping into the mammalian caregiving system.
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What's unique about mammals is they are born very immature,
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which means a system had to be evolved
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in which the infant would want to stay close next to the mother
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and stay safe,
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which means our bodies are programmed to respond to warmth,
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gentle touch, and soft vocalizations.
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So when we give ourselves compassion,
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the research shows we actually reduce our cortisol levels,
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and release oxytocin and opiates,
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which are the feel-good hormones.
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And when we feel safe and comforted,
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we are in the optimal mindstate to do our best.
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And it's actually very easy to see
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when we think about how to best motivate our children.
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Let's say there is a father
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whose son comes home from high school with a failing math grade.
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The father has two different ways to try to motivate his child.
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The first is with harsh criticism.
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The son comes in, shows to father the math grade,
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and the father says,
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"I'm ashamed of you. What a loser. You'll never amount to anything."
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Does that make you cringe?
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Isn't that often precisely the type of language we use with ourselves?
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What's going to happen to that son?
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Will he try harder? Yes, he will for the short term.
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But eventually, he's going to lose faith in himself.
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He's going to become depressed, and he will become afraid of failure
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and probably give up math
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because the consequences of failing again are just too dire.
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But what if the father takes a compassionate approach?
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The son shows him the failing math grade, and the father says,
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"Uhh, ouch, wow. You must be hurting. I'm sorry.
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Hey, give me a hug. I still love you. It happens to everyone.
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But I know you want to get your math grades up
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because you want to go to college."
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Here's what compassion says: "What can I do to help?"
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"How can I support you?"
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And the more encouraging, loving, compassionate the father is,
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the better place, emotionally, the son will be in to do his best.
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And luckily, research strongly supports everything I've been saying.
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The last few years, especially, have seen a sharp uptick
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in the number of research studies conducted on self-compassion.
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And the bottom line is unequivocally:
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Self-compassion is very strongly related to mental well-being.
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It's strongly related to less depression,
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less anxiety, less stress, less perfectionism.
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It's equally strongly related to positive states, like happiness,
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like life satisfaction.
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It's linked to greater motivation, taking greater self-responsibility,
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making healthier lifestyle choices.
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It's also linked to having more sense of connectedness with others,
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better interpersonal relationships.
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We've also done some research
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comparing directly self-esteem and self-compassion.
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And what we find, what you can say
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is that self-compassion offers the benefits of self-esteem
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without the pitfalls.
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So it's associated with strong mental health,
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but it's not associated with narcissism, or constant social comparison,
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or ego-defensive aggression.
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It also provides a much more stable sense of self-worth than self-esteem does
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because it's there for you precisely when you fail.
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Just when self-esteem deserts you,
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self-compassion steps in and gives you a sense of being valuable,
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not because you've reached some standard, or you've judged yourself positively,
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but because you are a human being, worthy of love in that moment.
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And again this is something I really know from my personal life.
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The greatest challenge I have faced in my life, so far,
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was when my son Rowan was diagnosed with autism.
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And luckily when he was diagnosed,
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I had a long practice of self-compassion under my belt.
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So when I first got the diagnosis,
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I felt incredible grief;
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I even felt some shame.
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And it was very hard to feel that, to admit that to myself.
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Because how can I feel grief
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about this child who I love more than anyone else in the world?
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The thing is I was feeling that, and I knew
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that what I needed at that moment was to embrace how difficult it was.
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And the more I could embrace my own grief, the more quickly I moved through it,
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and then the more able I was to turn toward him
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and accept and love him for who he was.
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It also helped me over and over again in the heat of the moment.
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As you may know, one issue with autistic children,
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especially when they're young, is they can throw very terrible tantrums.
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So, imagine being on a plane to England -
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this is a true story, Rowan was four years old -
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I don't know what set him off,
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but he throws a doozy of tantrum.
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Flailing and screaming.
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Everyone on that plane looking at us like they wish we were dead.
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He's four years old; he looks normal.
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People are thinking,
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"What's wrong with this kid? Why is he acting this way?
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What's wrong with this mother, why can't she control her child?"
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Okay, lots of fear. What do I do, what do I do?
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Jumping out the window sadly wasn't an option, so ...
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I know, I'll take him to the bathroom. Try to comfort him there.
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Maybe it'll muffle his screams.
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So I'm kind of taking this four-year-old, flailing child to the bathroom,
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which was, of course ...
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occupied.
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(Laughter)
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Imagine being in that little space outside the bathroom door
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with this tantruming child,
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and I knew, in that moment, the only refuge I had was self-compassion.
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So I put my hands over my heart, and I tried to comfort him,
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but I was mainly focusing on myself.
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"This is so hard right now, darling. I'm so sorry you're going through this.
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But I'm here for you."
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And you know what? It got me through.
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And by allowing myself to be open-hearted toward myself,
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I could remain open-hearted to Rowan.
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People sometimes think self-compassion is self-indulgent or selfish.
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It's not.
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Because the more we were able to keep our hearts open to ourselves,
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the more we have available to give to others.
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So I would like to invite you to try to be more compassionate to yourself.
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Especially as women, you know how to do it.
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You know how to be a good friend.
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You know what to say to comfort someone when they're in need.
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You just have to remember to be a good friend to yourself.
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It's easier than you think, and it really could change your life.
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And that's why I think self-compassion is an idea worth spreading.
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Thank you.
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